Proverbs 9:10 – The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.
When the Bible says “fear” of the Lord I used to think it was because God was an “angry” God. I suppose reading the Old Testament in an isolated framework and some of the teaching styles of the church in the 70’s could give that impression and therefore Fear of the Lord really did mean to me “be afraid of him”. Couple that with a Bible knowledge that knew it clearly said that Homosexuality is a sin I was afraid not just of God but also of the consequences of my actions. So afraid in fact, that the easiest thing to do was to run away, not to face up to it and work it through but to run from God and hope that it all went away.
I have news! God is not to be feared. God is to be respected and believed and as we start to do that then we start to gain more wisdom and revelation into his desires for our lives. Knowledge of the Holy One can be gained through a closer walk with God and a deeper understanding of his word. Reading the Bible is so important, and reading it in context so much more important. Having recently embarked on a reading plan to read the Bible in 90 days starting at Genesis and working through, so much falls into place as you read it in context to other events and happenings recorded previously.
Our relationship with God is personal. As we seek to know him more he will make clear our paths, he will make clear the ways in which he wants us to walk. And this is all I suggest anyone exploring their faith and sexuality does. Fear the Lord in the right way, do not be afraid of him he is your friend (he gave his life for you) start a relationship with him, one where you both talk and listen and gradually you will hear his voice and understand what areas he needs you to be obedient in. Don’t be afraid his plans for you are perfect.